Sliver glittery nails

I've been staying home for the last 3 days, recovering from my newly developed allergies. Don't know what it is...but I feel awful, eyes burning (can't wear contacts), sinus acting up like crazy, can't stop sneezing... it's just terrible. Oh I feel miserable!

So what do I do to cheer myself up? Paint my nails! Probably not the best idea since the chemicals in the nail polish is pretty toxic, but beauty has a price...right? I did sneeze even more afterward. =p

I think I did a pretty decent job at making my nails glittery. Maybe the look suits the Christmas holiday season better? But, I don't really care... I always do what I like for myself. It makes me happy... Shiny and glittery things always puts a smile on my face.

Try it, it'll cheer you up! =)

*Revlon nail color: Silver Screen
*N.Y.C Long-wearing Nail Enamel: 105A Starry Silver Glitter
* Sally Hansen Salon Nail Lacquer: 310 Clear'd for Takeoff

Don't judge a book by its Cover!

I am still trying to learn this. It's not easy. Trying to give people the benefit of doubt troubles me sometimes, especially since my recent judgment of people in general has failed me miserably.

Animals are different. It's quite simple... treat them well, and they will love you~ unconditionally.



Ying Yang (named for obvious reason)~ she doesn't look sweet at all! But, she is the sweetest kitty! She might even be sweeter than my own babies. Ying Yang lives outdoors, sleeps outside the doorstep of a neighbor who "kind of" took her in after another neighbor moved away and couldn't take her with them. When I first saw Ying Yang, I couldn't help myself but to think "what an ugly kitty"! She then followed me around, even to my side of the building... she looked really friendly, nonthreatening at all. She was just hungry. I fed her and we became friends.



She meows like a little girl and is always there to greet me when I come home or when I pass by. I have to say, her look grows on you... I actually see the beauty in her now. Beauty is REALLY in the eye of the beholder! She is really cute!




So whenever I feel like judging, Ying Yang is there to remind me... to give people a (another) chance, even if they've given me much heartache and great disappointment.

And, so if for some reason, they prove me wrong again... I will then have learned another valuable lesson in life.



Meow Meow~ smile kitty, smile.

My Sweetie

Bumpy~ my sweet... my heart, always by my side.

Friendships

Rarely do I ever regret anything in my life. But lately I've been thinking about a friend or two who I've lost contact with from a few years back. I sort of regret letting go of those friendships. For one of those friendships, I did make the decision to withdraw and slowly let that awesome friend go... I miss my friend. I just miss him so much now.

December...

Ahh... December...

December, the last month of the year... life as I know it has taken a even worse turn. Normally, December is a happy time, or at least a festive time... with Christmas coming and all. Unfortunately, this entire year has thus far been a trying year and at the last month of the year, everything has to spiral down even farther. When will my obstacles end?

When I am supposed to be focusing on ONLY looking for a new job, my laptop decides to act up. It turns pink! I love my Lappy, though it's old... about 4 1/2 years old. It's still usable, but my eyes will only get worse as my Eye doctor had already told me... my last job gave me a case of severe dry eye... from staring constantly into a badly lit computer screen. Then I catch the flu. This was a bad one. I haven't had the flu for over 2 years! It disabled me! I even had to reschedule an interview because I was coughing up a storm and couldn't even finish one sentence without needing to cough up some mucus (sorry, it's gross I know.) Being sick is definitely the pits... and just as my luck would have it, I get into a car accident! A hit and run accident! And, all the while I'm still delirious and ill...at the scene of the accident, I am confused, I am feeling as if God wants to throw me more curve balls. I feel so alone.

I need a job AND I need to move forward from the hell I've been experiencing this past year. Without any compassion from family, I feel so alone as it is and then I get into an exchange of harsh words with them that makes me even more depressed. All I can do is to take care of myself and stop analyzing others I suppose... but I continue to receive obstacles preventing me to do what I need to do.

In the midst of trying to recover from the flu, taking care of the car accident (which has caused me more body aches), getting a working laptop, family issues, etc... my DSL somehow got ported over to a new carrier without MY authorization! Some one from Verizon messed up big time and they are all idiots. I spent 700 minutes on my cell phone trying to fix this~ fix a problem I did not cause, and getting really useless techs from them. None of this is my doing!! I ask, WHY IS THIS CRAP HAPPENING TO ME?? All I want to do is focus on looking for a job so I can survive! Why am I being attacked left and right?! I want to cry... no, I'm really tired. Tired of needing to take care of unnecessary things! Life is really not good right now. No, it sucks.

I want to sue Verizon so bad for messing with my line and interrupting my life even more! I had no connection for a week and yet they still cannot trace what happened?! It is ridiculous that I spoke to over 20 people and all except one was willing to help. When I gain some sanity and strength, I will make it my mission to get Verizon for messing with me! That will be real fun!

Meanwhile, I am trying to fix my miserable month/life. I am hoping and praying nothing worse can come my way. Maybe convincing myself that with all the bad that has happened and passed, a new light will appear as the new year arrives... at least this way, maybe I'll be happier and feel less wanting to give up.